I’ve hesitated to write my first blog post for months now, collecting several excuses along the way and promising to myself (and others) to start soon. Soon is apparently a loosely defined concept for me, but I got the final push this week to take the first step.
Writer and teacher Erin Gruwell spoke on campus this week to our students, sharing her experiences as the teacher and mentor responsible for The Freedom Writers Diary. She told the students and teachers in the audience, “It’s scary to put (writing) out into the world- people can interpret it, good, bad, or otherwise.” She nailed me and my hesitation.
I majored in English, Journalism, and Applied writing as an undergraduate and wrote thousands of pages during my four years at Ashland University. I hesitated then too. The irony, of course, is that I love writing.
After the event I asked students from our Leadership Living Learning Community if they were planning to reflect on her talk in their Freshman Seminar blogs. I felt a twinge of guilt as I asked them to do something I hadn’t been modeling. Though I had helped them set up the themes and widgets for their blogs, reflected on the content of their first posts with them, and encouraged them to write– my support had stopped there.
Erin promised the audience, “Good things come when you go to that place and be vulnerable.” If I can ask first year college students to be vulnerable and to share their discovery process, surely I can make that commitment to myself too.
Am I alone on this? Did you give yourself a pep talk before your first post, or jump right in? I’d love to read other first posts, share your link if you’re willing to be vulnerable too.
It took me a lot of deep breaths, and what I finally wrote (http://bit.ly/aINqu8) was nothing as cogent as your post–it was simply a jumping off point to eliminate the glare of a blank page. But it gets easier, and I’m not so afraid to write about something anymore. My worst fail is that I want to perfect an entry and, as a result, some posts don’t leave the draft status. Again I say, work in progress.
Good luck! You’re off to a great start!
Becca,
I think you’ve already seen this, but I share your fear of putting my writing out there for others to read. I think that’s part of the reason I didn’t keep posting. That and the fact that this quarter is busier than any other thus far in grad school.
The crazy thing for me is that I love reading what other people write, I just don’t think other people would want to read what I write.
Good luck and keep at it – I’ll keep reading
Rachel
I know how you feel. I knew I wanted to write about my grad school experiences while in grad school. I want to sound smart and funny but not too much of one and not enough of the other! So I regularly take blogging breaks…
Here is my blog about being in grad school –
http://lifelessblogged.blogspot.com/2010/08/its-about-time.html
I’ll share with you as soon as I write it – my first post is on four pieces of notepaper and a few loose thoughts still in my head!
I know how you feel. It took a lot of encouragement from my friends to start a blog. Even then, I took the easy way out as I started one immediately prior to a trip and just blogged about my experiences so that people could follow what I was up to.
When my trip was finished, that’s when I had to decide what to do with my blog. It took days for me to craft that first post-trip post (http://goo.gl/S8kN). It’s not even that long. I just remember saying I was done, hitting publish and then closing my blog browser window for the rest of the day.